Yeah, I've decided to call time on this place.
12:26 AM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments

Okay. So people actually complained that I've not updated my blog for a long, long time. But what else can I say? That many things happened and I've to note them down detail by detail? I don't really see the need. Then again, I've had quite an eventful period during which I did not update the blog.

So basically my life in the past 2 months - inspiration courtesy of Jian Da - has been something like this:


Until ORD on 4th November, that is. So there.
1:55 AM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments

If my life were a rollercoaster ride, then I must say recently it has been one hell of a ride! Indeed, recently I've been through a lot, and even so it seems to me like more of an understatement. Sometimes, it really takes an important - painful even - to wake you up and make you see the world around you...

Okay. So I'm basically very, very bothered by an egregious mistake I made during evaluation. Regrettably to say, me and my buddy was caught during outfield sleeping during sentry. And while I was, initially, apprehensive about the remarks due to some factors that might mitigate the punishment or even to the extent of clearing my name, I soon realised that I was indeed at fault, and I've got no choice but to take it like a man.

BUT...

What was very maddening was the way the punishments were... let's just say, presented to me. Just after that outfield, I fell sick and spent the whole National Day weekend in bed. And before I could recover, I received a call from my superior (shan't say who) about taking over somebody's duty ON THAT DAY ITSELF! I had no way of protesting because that was my punishment. So my block leave was interrupted, when it was due to start that day and give us a nice long break.

AND WHEN THINGS CAN'T SEEM TO GET ANY WORSE...

I received another call on Friday from the duty personnel, saying that the same arrow has shot me twice in a week, this time as SUNDAY GUARD!!! Great! My plans for Saturday night were effectively gone, including going to Marina Bay to watch the YOG Opening Ceremony. It wasn't till late - very late indeed - Saturday that I was told only to book in on Sunday morning, seemingly the best news for the whole week.

THIS IS JUST GREAT!

I couldn't help but become wholly depressed and emotional for the next few days, having endured so much s**t in the span of one week. I didn't want to tell anybody or let anybody find out about all these, and the hints I gave on Facebook were subtle (or at least I think it's subtle), but somehow friends could find out out of nowhere, such as when a good friend called the company office and I was the person answering.

BUT EVERY CLOUD HAS A SILVER LINING

And mine did as soon as the guard duty finished...

STAY OUT COURSE!!!

Enjoyed every moment of it! And with time available now at night, most of them are spent outside with friends, doing the things I love the most. Although it's going to come to an end this week, I'm glad that I've recharged myself by the time this finishes. I wouldn't have any regrets, that's for sure.

And thank you friends and confidants so, so much for all the support you've been giving me. In the sense of the word, you guys really make me feel loved. I'm so blessed to be among you people and will always be grateful to you guys. :)

But after saying so much, you might be surprised to know that this is not my focus for today's post.

I want to talk about the lesson I've really learnt from that initial incident, and along the way, I've been edified and encouraged in the same way. Bear with me, but I think this, for me, is serious enough to warrant such a long post today.

The incident about me sleeping during outfield has bugged me, but none more than that inner voice that reminded of the uncanny similarity between that and the parables in the Bible that taught about the greatest secret ever kept: the time of Jesus' second coming. In a nutshell, it is about being vigilant, to make sure you are never caught off-guard, like I did.

So it says in Matthew 24:

42"Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. 43But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. 44So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

45"Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their food at the proper time? 46It will be good for that servant whose master finds him doing so when he returns. 47I tell you the truth, he will put him in charge of all his possessions. 48But suppose that servant is wicked and says to himself, 'My master is staying away a long time,' 49and he then begins to beat his fellow servants and to eat and drink with drunkards. 50The master of that servant will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he is not aware of. 51He will cut him to pieces and assign him a place with the hypocrites, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

I have been reminded by this very passage about my lifestyle. I've realised I'm not doing enough - keeping vigil in this sense - to earn that all-important ticket to heaven. And I was greatly edified during sharing on Sunday, when some guys reminded me of the exact same thing from their experiences. Seems like this passage has gotten my attention, if that's what God is trying to tell me.

And when I think about the signs of the end times, where one will "hear of wars and rumours of wars" and experience "famines and earthquakes in various places". Truthfully, I think the biblical birth pains are getting more apparent and may I say, ominous.

So, let's keep watch together!
8:48 PM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments

It's because of talented local singer-songwriters like Corrinne May that makes me so proud of Singapore.



"...I want to sing, sing a song for Singapore."
8:29 AM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments

Just came back from Sophia's 21st birthday bash at her place. From the looks of the atmosphere and the overwhelming response, it was, by far, a restounding success, and I can't help but wonder if my 21st will be anything close to that. I don't consider myself a popular kid - as most will attest - but I would wish to celebrate my big milestone with a supportive audience. People whom I love, people whom I trust, people whom I've had been through thick and thin with, people who are not ashamed to consider me as their friend.

Heard David Tao's 寂寞的季节 while hitchhiking Paul's car back home for the first time in a long while, and suddenly I felt a deep, longing sense of loneliness that's buried deep within my heart. The nostalgic melody and the equally saddening lyrics have made me realised how lonely I am for most parts of my 19 years. All my life, I haven't been the person with the most friends, and in truth I really wanted more out of it. But by God's grace, the few friendships I've made are truly built to last. And while I consider myself desperate (yes, on the record, that is probably the most apt word to describe it) for a girlfriend, I've hardly made any moves to girls I fancy till now... and I probably will not get one anytime soon - anytime being for the next year, at least.

Off all that, music has always been something I take solace in. As I've mentioned before, music will always be my first love, something nobody can ever take away from me. Despite my iPod Classic was stolen on Friday by - I suspect - buggers from another company in my camp, it hasn't dampen my love for music. In fact, I'm already wondering how I'm going to survive without music when I book in on Tuesday. And for the first time in my life, I'm seriously opening to the idea of making music my future career. If that's going to alleviate my loneliness.

Anybody wants to sell me his/her second-hand MP3 for a nominal fee? I'd be grateful. :)

Anyway, company cohesion tomorrow will be watcing movie, then I'll likely be going K with my army mates. It's been some time since we - and I - last went to KTV, so I'll definitely be trying out new tunes. And I hope to bring people who are out of this circle, so feel free to contact me if you want. Nothing better than to make new friends, right?

I guess it's time to keep loneliness at bay.
11:04 PM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments

Just realised Sungha Jung is releasing a CD and composing his own guitar pieces. Wow!



Love Sungha Jung, man!

And duty has been, well, slack. If not, how can I even blog? Haha.
8:24 PM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments

What's the matter with me? Getting all sad and emotional from all that's gotta do with music.

Why am I getting uptight because I can't join the rest for karaoke? Why tears started streaming down when I listen to certain songs?


Alright, I'm a music emo freak. Oh well. Book-in time.
9:44 PM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments

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