Monday, June 07, 2010
Tears
Everything that's happened in the past months has brought a tear in my eye. Perhaps it's because so much has happened, be it in Taiwan or in Singapore, or even what actually happened in Singapore when I wasn't around (it's complicated). Or perhaps it's the feeling, that dreadful feeling, when I'm about to book in in camp for the first time in 6 weeks.Nostalgia kicks in when I think about how wonderfully I enjoyed this 8 days of break. K-ed twice, hung out with my church mate and good friend Jun Hao for 4 consecutive days, watched 2 movies (and many more at home), had a good chat with many of my friends whom I've dearly missed in Taiwan (secondary schoolmates, you're next!), went prawning and steamboat with churchmates, and some other things I've already forgotten. So many things, yet it seems, so little time. And such cherished memories.
And I know that I should've done many things differently. If I've done many things in another way, resolved problems more ideally, handled my emotions better, maybe things won't have ended up this way. It has come to this: embarking on a journey which has passed the point of no return. I don't like to, don't want to, don't wish to, but this path, it seems, is looming ahead of me. Walking aimlessly, I can't help but cry. How the hell am I going to book in later?
How I yearn for the day when
- 4God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away."
5Then He who sat on the throne said, "Behold, I make all things new."
(Revelation 21)
How amazing it would be on the day that I'll never cry again, and everything I've done is erased and begin on a clean slate.
P.S. Please, please, please pray for me (if you believe in the power of prayer) that I'll be able to join my church for retreat this weekend!
6:15 PM By KayAik JiaYi 0 Comments
